Lyrically this record became a concept album
and was not initially written that way though I had a clear idea of
what sort of things I wanted to write about. I did not
write the songs as a character but as myself. The form revealed itself
as it took shape and I added songs to complete the flow I perceived. I
also left off two songs since the singer’s words were somewhat from the
inside out. All the remaining songs lyrical viewpoint is from the
inside in. They are very personal, hence my being uncomfortable talking
about them in any specific terms. Even in the long
“description” I wrote, I’m being very cagey. The actual experience was,
and is, very specific and did not involve anything vague. But to
explain it in plain terms would serve no purpose other than to make me
look insane to people who have no correlating inner experience. What
I’ve said so far is vague insomuch as it has to be to be open and
universal. But I’ve said enough to where anyone who has had a similar
inner experience may be gently directed towards finding some clarity in
areas, which are confusing. I’m sharing it to the degree I am because I
have, at times, been so lost in the course of my life, and have been
gently directed towards making sense of lots of confusing things from
reading certain writers and from obsessing on lyrics of rock songs
about this same subject, of which I believe there to be many, though
perhaps often unbeknownst to the writers of the songs themselves.
We are all reaching up in our own way and so
even when we choose concrete things as the object of our desire, I feel
that they are only symbols and that the real object of our desire is
the creative force inherent in everything. It is what created us and
perpetuates our lives, and so our creations are its creations. Kind
of like if you built a robot that could think and feel, and then it
painted a picture, that picture would be the result of the precise
structure of thought and feeling you endowed the robot with. We’re all
grateful for what we’ve been given. Even when we are unhappy with
everything, its “poor me”, showing that we still think of that “me” and
its feelings, as having a lot of significance. It’s a pretty amazing
thing to have this complex network of thought and feeling in these
bodies. From where does it come? We’ve traced the cause of matter to
something that required the preexistence of time, the principles of
motion, space and many other things. The laws of motion, time and the
space everything exists into, all have an untraced cause. And likewise
we don’t have any idea where things like perception and thought came
from. So why anything whatsoever exists, whether as
actuality or potential, is unknown. I just attribute all these things
to the creative force, since, though its essence is unknown, it is in
plain view inside each one of us. And it becomes clearer the more
generative and positive a persons thoughts and actions are, until it
doesn’t seem unknown at all. Our own creative nature is a small version
of the creative force we owe existence to, so we can understand that
force for ourselves just by doing creative acts.
The life giving properties that the suns
rays contain is something we imitate ourselves, whether by smiling at
someone or telling a joke, or singing a song. It is a human need when
you feel something inside to express it outwardly. And that life giving
substance the sun shines out is a lot like our own creative actions.
The sun is telling us that if you repeat an action every day (like
learning something, playing something or making something), the object
of your efforts will grow and grow. Your ability to express yourself or
to give to the world around you will grow with your persistence in
doing whatever that thing is you do. And even though the sun appears to
go up and down, having its process of apparently rising up, peaking,
going down, and then hiding, science has taught us that this only
appears this way to our point of view and it is circling around, and
shining at full strength always. Likewise our own ups and downs just
appear as they do to us. In actuality we are thriving all the time. Everything we do is directed towards shining our form of light. We
couldn’t do it if we were just peaking all the time, just as life as we
know it would end if the sun always stayed at what appears to us as its
highest point of strength. A person could never exceed at something if
they just did it once in a while, it’s a hint and half that the thing
we owe our existence to repeats its rounds every day. Persistence is an
incredibly potent thing. We are lucky that life isn’t like dreams, in
which the result of our actions is lost by the next dream. Here we have
the ability to build a thing from day to day, whether it is skill at
something or an actual edifice. Whether in the physical world or in our
minds, this principle stands. We read one page of a book, and upon
reading the next page its events appear to us as following the last
one. In music, one note leads to the next, the new one heard in
relationship to the ones, which preceded it. Or we learn the basics of
something and then gradually learn that subjects complexities. These
gifts are ours to do whatever we want with.
Trying and giving up go hand in hand. But
it’s trying that deserves the attention of our will. Giving up is just
breathing out. Breathing in is the one we need to remember to do. Breathing
out naturally follows. The important thing is just to keep breathing.
To try and then just go through all that happens, including not trying.
And so we hold our breath sometimes. These things aren’t problems. They
are just living. As long as the message you send yourself is that it is
important to you to be guided by the creative force inside you, in the
long run you are on the same path as the sun. Of course you’ll seem to
go up and down, and be in darkness and light. That’s life. The reality
of it is that you are a shining star circling through space all the
time. So by making your own circular actions (doing some creative or
educational activity consistently) you will naturally become more of
what you really are. And you are that already. It’s just a game to
learn to be it more completely amidst environment, and the illusions of
constant change and separateness. One entirety of everything is all
there is, ever was, and ever will be.
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